Monday, October 24, 2005

THE REAL ME!




A veces solo a veces llego a aquel drámatico punto de mi ser en que no se quien soy....
no sé para donde voy... ni como voy...ni menos el con quien voy...tal vez me deje atrás...tal vez me dejé de lado por mucho tiempo...estoy seguro que mi ser social engulló a mi ser real...y lamentablemente me di cuanta cuando todo era tarde...cuando mi mente era un bombardeo de imagenes...incontenibles...inefables...penetrantes...y abominables....tal vez deje el camino de mis sueños´por el camino de los sueños de unos otros.....entonces dejo de saber quien siempres he sidoo para darle paso a un ser profundamente sencible, triste y emtivo...un tanto timido...es ese entonces mi tan oculto ...THE REAL ME....será quizás eso lo que todos esconden su propio verdugo o tal vez fuen una extraña pero traumática manera de dar a luz a THE REAL ME...ese the real me que no sabe de quien está enamorado,pero sabe de que puede amar..ese que leyendo el blog de otro donde preguntaba de la cancion que maraca la vida tan solo se le vivno a la memoria la voz de alguin que lo amo en algun pasado lejano o tal vez en un pasado futuro...entonces debo pararme y volver a caminar en el camino de mis sueños esta vez mirando al mundo desde los ojos de quien soy, es decir desde THE REAL ME!.....recuerdo en este momento a Carrie Bradshaw....en la cuarta temporada de SEX AND THE CITY..."THE REAL ME"...cuanda estaba mirando al publico desde una pasarela con un tacón roto.... entonces recuerdo....sakura o cherry blossom....la sabiduria, el amor la belleza y el renacer simbolizados en la flor de cerezos en la primavera.....

el siguiente tema esta dedicado a unos de los hombres más bellos que he conocido, amado y que amaré, de quien apredí a amar, a sentir y a soñar...Quizás ahora soy yo quien debo sacrte alguna noche...como dice THE SMITHS "THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT" RECUARDALO SIEMPRE...Y ANTE TODO DE QUE PUEDES VOLAR AUNQUE TUS ALAS ESTEN HERIDAS..Y QUE´PUEDES BRILLAR INCLUSO EN LA OSCURIDAD Y ANTE TODO QUE TE PUEDO AMAR...TAL VEZ LAS LAGRIAMS DE ESTOS ULTIMOS DÍAS SON PARA TI, PARA TU AMOR, PARA TU BELLEZA, O QUIZAS PARA OTRO QUE TAMBIEN AMO..NO LO SE....
THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT,THE SMITHS.

Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and I
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please don't drop me home
Because it's not my home, it's their
Home, and I'm welcome no more


And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine


Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought Oh God, my chance has come at last
(But then a strange fear gripped me and I
Just couldn't ask)


Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one, da ...
Oh, I haven't got one


And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine


Oh, There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Tranquillity, tranquillity......



No lo sé, tan solo, no lo sé, será posible volver a creer en la calma, o más bien en lo que dice cher en believe "i believe in the love after love", no lo sé, quizas debiera pararme y empezar a buscar yo a la version 2.0 de mi principe azul y no quedarme contemplando la estela fulgoroza y bella de su presencia, debiera entonces prepararme para volver a experimentar sentimientos bilaterales, tomar en cuenta al movimiento como salida individual a una crisis global, pretendo contemplar los caminos de esta nueva bifurcación, debo tomar entonces el que me lleve mas lejos de lo que debo ir, aunque eso signifique la más absoluta soledad, me he canzado de esperar y de creer un tanto en lo inefable, en lo ambiguo, el dolor.
Ahora estoy solo frente al mundo, cicatrizando las heridas, mirando esta vez hacia adelante, reencontrandome con los sueños que deje tirandos cuando salí de mi camino, pues ahora ya de regreso, deberé recolectarlos uno a uno, reconstruir mi vida, dejandome sorprender algun dia por los amores ausentes......por el momento recuerdo las palbras de Gatubela en Batman returs, "I'll keep another life to the next christmas"...

CHER - "Believe"

No matter how hard I tryYou keep pushing me aside
And I can't break through
There's no talkin' to you
It's so sad that you're leavin'It takes time to believe it
But after all is said and done
You're gonna be the lonely one...ohhh
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say,
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
What am I supposed to do,
Sit around and wait for you
Well I can't do that
And there's no turnin' back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
'Cos I've had time to think it through,
N' maybe I'm too good for you, ohhh
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Well I know that I'll get through this
'Cos I know that I am strong
And, I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
No, I don't need you anymore
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say,
I really don't think you're strong enough, no.
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say,
I really don't think you're strong enough, no

Monday, August 22, 2005

I missed my heart and i need to find it, i can't live without it


Esta el la primera vez que publico algo en este nuevo y novedoso medio para mi....

Gabriel
I can fly But
I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
I can love
But I need his heart
I am strong even on my own
But from him
I never want to part
He's been there since the very start
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
Bless the day he came to be
Angel's wings carried him to me
Heavenly
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel